Doormat

This was me then…For the sake of love, I waited patiently while he went and did God-knows-what with whoever. For the sake of love I bit my tongue when someone whom I hold dear says hurtful things to me. For the sake of love I hold my peace when my blood boils because of the unprovoked attacks of others. For the sake of love, I stay silent when a “friend” treats me like I’m stupid. For the sake of love I remain stoic as those dearest to my heart take my kindness for weakness. For the sake of love, I keep silent as girls drag my name through the mud. For the sake of love, I smile when a friend of a friend trashes my good name. For the sake of all, I bore all things.

This is me now…For the sake of love, I fight for the respect and honor I deserve. For the sake of love, I step away from a so-called-friend when she fails to realize how her selfish ways and manners affect me. For the sake of love, I bite my tongue temporarily then speak my mind as the situation allows. For the sake of love, I scream, I cry and ultimately resolve the issues that were trying to tear him and I apart. For the sake of love, I refuse to give up on the man of my dreams. For the sake of love, I dismiss and disregard the guy who has tried for almost a decade to break me down. For the sake of love, I hold my head up high even when he parades around trying to turn his latest ___ into a housewife. For the sake of love, I pray for forgiveness for wishing evil on those who had behaved evilly towards me. For the sake of love, I cry for a friend long lost, as she falls further and further away from grace. For the sake of love, I do my best to wish her well even though her actions cut me to the core. For the sake of love, I still find ways to rejoice with the very ones who snickered behind my back when all I was trying to do was better myself. For the sake of love, I let go of the anger that could consume me whole if I let it. For the sake of love, I am a better woman.

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